I'm truly sorry to hear about your struggles. To address psychological problems and thinking disorders caused by your environment and relationships, seek professional help from a psychiatrist psychologist, or therapist. Share your feelings with a trusted friend or family member, prioritize self-care, and consider journaling. If necessary, set boundaries with toxic individuals and, under professional guidance, explore medication options. Recovery takes time, so be patient and work on a long-term plan with your mental health provider. You don't have to face this alone; there is help available.